V. - To not need no longer

Those scars upon my soul Won't release me through the pain They just let me drown and drown In blood, in thought, in agony Obsession that took hold I lost You in the silence Because I love, I yearn, I want Because I care, because I need Something more than today Something more than yesterday And past year And past several lifes And more than everything I ever got I thought I can heal You As I hold You still inside An image without a pain To bring back without any Reflection that was broken That now lay in my hands There was a thought To bring You joy There was a need To make you safe What have I done? The devils that squirm inside Keep me in chains of emptiness It's only pain and cold! And loneliness of another night The norms, my tongue, my body Do not speak my language They have nothing to give To You, to the outside They do not fit me And are anathema To everything inside that I know Suffering! I cannot sleep at night Knowing I abandoned You Cause I cannot stay Can't be still here Because I love, I yearn, I want Because I care, because I need More and more of You And I weep for You Knowing You do not need me no longer